Isn’t it amazing how you can get so focused on you day to
day struggles you forget about the big picture view? God wants us to give our
all to the day to day grind, but not to forget why we are doing it. I am
guilty. Staying the Word of God is the only way I can remember and meditate on
that big picture view.
The things that I struggle with the most are when the
children disobey. Here is the thing…I take it personally and get offended that
they acted the way they did. You know what I am talking about, those times you
have said a million times to not throw toys at people, run in the house, no
spitting, wash your hands after going the bathroom, finish the dishes, and even
get up you sleepy head it is NOON! (We won’t go there to whom that may be.)
Being offended is not the right behavior for me.
My job is to train up and raise warriors for Christ. God
never did tell me how long that was going to take or promise me that was going
to be easy or that they will choose to listen and follow in obedience! What He
does share with me is that He is compassionate, merciful, truthful, loving,
just, will never leave me, and that I need to strive to be more like Him every day.
Look up Exodus 34:6, Psalms 86:15, Galatians 2: 20, and Hebrews 13:5. So if I
was more like Him would I be offended or would I even get angry at Him because
I have it rough.
Okay so let me transparent. Never thought this was my issue,
but God says it is so I better listen and change my course of action. When we
had kids I knew that it would be a life changing event, but my view and God’s
view of that life changing event(s) was very different. I also knew there would
be struggles. But God knew these struggles would not stop once you think the
child “got it”. Few weeks (ok maybe an hour) later they do the same dog gone
thing and you again have to spend all the time re-talking, re-disciple, and re-heart
ache. Then my angry would once again rear its ugly head, because you’ve been
there, that millionth time you have said no don’t touch the fire. I had to take
time out of “my” planned day and discipline a child. Stupid, I know, but I
would say I was justified in getting angry at them.
What God has revealed to me is that I am getting angry at
Him for “my” life not being what I had planned. Those divine interruptions need
to be divine interventions. You probably have heard that as parents you have
lots of teachable moments…those teachable moments are actually more teachable
moments for me! Being a parent is hard work, but it is even harder when I fight
with God over how these parenting years should look like. I am tired of having
my little adult temper tantrums and want to align myself up with my Father. Sure makes me appreciate Him more!
Joe and I are facing many giants in front us with raising 6 godly
children in this fallen world. We don’t know what lies ahead, but together we
hold loosely to our expectations and always are on the lookout for opportunities
to join God where He is working! We know that every day there are six opportunities!
What about you?
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